My First Love ♥

My adolescence period makes me crazy every time I think my stupidity .There ,I started to see the reality as a daughter, a student and a teenager.Sounds good but can't get over the time I actually fall for someone at the age of 13.waaaa ! I don't know if that was really love that I felt. Way back in my elementary days(at the last grade of elementary) that I saw this cute boy.He has a chinky eyes , a fair complexion and a cute lips. Strange fact , I did not noticed him before instead it was his brother who used to be our trainer in DBC(Drum and Bugle Corp.) waaaaa ! really crazy ! During our practice, I accidentally leaned to his which made everybody chased us. It was nothing to me.Accident like that really happens nothing unusual.My co-members thought of a boy-girl you know. whoah ! back off !Mama here, keeps on reminding me not to indulge such fuss like that especially at a young age.But days passed, he act weird and mind this,I acted differently too."Is it because I like the way he treats me?",I asked myself. Ronna stop it !Crush!Crush maybe.Graduations approaching then, he was extra sweet that he made a crochet bracelet for me.I'm just a girl,I was happy that among all girl classmates,it was me whom he gave it.It leave a trademark on my deepest me until we parted and went to our different lives after elementary especially that we won't be in the same school.I kept on thinking about the happiest memories I shared with him,we always talk behind the big cabinet near our CR.ahaha !

And there was high school.I knew from his friend that he was going to court me.It was just I'm too over acting.huhuhu ! my love was gone,but I never surrender.Until I heard, he had his girlfriend.It really made me sick,LOVEsick?duh ! whatever they call it.I waited and now he's enjoying with his girlfriend.Damn ! Good thing,I have my super supportive friends that keeps on telling me to stand and show,I'M NOT AFFECTED! That's hard,but I should do it for the sake of my ego.I can't explain how hurtful it was to experience that mess with him.I'm damn stupid.My feelings evolve to love.Hate it actually,can't do nothing but to wait and be hurt again and again. Until I reached my age now,I truthfully waited he'll notice me again now that I'm at the good age to engage such thing they called LOVE.